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Happy 2010

I don't use this thing nearly enough. I felt the need tonight.

I'm so grateful to all my friends old and new for making my life so rich. I honestly ache when I look back over 2009 and think of all our scrapes and shenanigans. Thanks to them.

To the lady who broke my heart without even trying, almost three years ago: I love you. I can see now, with a little distance, how difficult a position you were in. Either you didn't return my feelings and you weren't sure how to tell me, or you did very much return my feelings and you couldn't find a way to break through your own homophobia, and your family's prejudices.

I miss you every day, you were my best friend. If I could find a way to go back, I would. I would handle it differently. I would say all the right things, be less naive. I would make it right, and maybe you would still be my friend today.

I can't change the past, but the future is mine to shape. Tonight I asked my friends to help me find the girl/guy of my dreams, to help me break out of this inertia I find myself in. I hope for a 2010 which is full of potential fulfilled, and I hope to be less lonely than in years gone by.

Happy New Year to everyone, may you meet and exceed your potential.

xxx

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